Guys, I am finally back blogging again! I pray you all are well. Life has been crazy as shit! So much has transpired that I can't wait to share with you what's been going on. I want to apologize for my hiatus. It appears I underestimated just how heavy mental health maintenance can be without self-care and boundaries. With intervention, I have made progress and can finally see clearly. I am here to stay.
I am falling back in love with all of the things I used to enjoy. All thanks goes to God. God restored me. Who would have thought I'd be back blogging and planting? While I don't want to preach to you or intimidate you with my relationship with God, I want to make it known a great deal of my recovery came from me being spiritually guided by the Divine. I spent a lot of days alone in a hotel room getting what I now call "ugly honest" about my circumstances. Who better to facilitate your healing at that point than God? I mean, what else do you do when you have tried family, friends, medical professionals and they all seem to treat you as if you're a rare case. A rare case with no blueprint.
Experiencing life, trauma and the constant demands of adulthood had me in a chokehold. I could not handle the load and I am learning that it is okay. We were never supposed to save the world. I ended up having to call the suicide line several times and that's when God lead me to organizations that actually understood how unique my circumstances were and helped me see what I couldn't. There's always a way out. Help is available. There is someone out there that not only understands what you are going through but has compassion for you.
I had no idea that a great deal of me burning out also came from me not resting. Within the last year, I had to force myself to rest by booking hotel stays so I could cancel out noise and distractions. Rest is much deeper than sleep. It is a lifestyle. It starts by taking your time and making informed decisions on what makes the most sense without having to deplete yourself. For instance, if you've had an intense work-out, try not to overload yourself by adding more things to your agenda that could wear you out. I had to learn to delegate tasks. Simplifying everything.
Society tries to convince us that working like an octopus in all areas of our lives is normal and it isn't. All I can hear as I type this is Kourtney Kardashian saying "Kim, there are people dying ". We must prioritize ourselves by getting rest. It feels like God has restored all of my creativity back and more. Everyday, I look forward to doing something new. I've always been an inquisitive person that loves to work with my hands so it means a lot to get back into things I care deeply about like blogging. It's important to spread awareness on current events and that's what blogging is about. While I was sick, I felt like I was on autopilot. It was so difficult to tap into creativity. I can honestly say now that Depression has no place here! Numbness doesn't rule me.
I've been free of depressive episodes for about two years now. I don't know what I did to be restored but I can't stop thanking God enough for it. It took some honesty, new medications and really connecting with God to get to the root of why I found myself stricken with periods of melancholy. I never intended to stop my blog, my podcast or any of my projects.It's just that I had my hands in so many different pots in addition to battling Depression and other diagnoses back then that it limited my abilities. I was struggling to exist and stay passionate while dealing with so many silent battles.
At that point in time, I had a lot of energy that surged through me after leaving a major depressive episode and I wanted to take advantage of my new leash on life. Unfortunately, it led to years of Burn out. Burn out that I am still recovering from. Everyday I am learning the importance of putting God first, taking it one day at a time and loving myself. If you are unfamiliar with Burn out, here is some education on what it is:
Occupational burnout is a state of physical, emotional, and mental exhaustion caused by prolonged, excessive stress. Key symptoms include chronic fatigue, cynicism, detachment from work, and reduced performance. Recovery involves setting boundaries, seeking support, and lifestyle changes, while prevention focuses on recognizing early signs. Here's a link with more information on burn out that could be useful to you: https://mhanational.org/resources/burnout-signs-causes-recover/.
God himself had to help me learn self-care so that I could get back to being the vibrant person I was before Depression. God spoke to me all through 2024 and 2025. He brought so much information back to my que and never left me hanging. For every detail he brought back to my memory, he gave me wisdom on how to expand on it. He reminded me of the things I once loved. Singing, dancing, painting, music, painting and creating. He allowed me to have what I call an adult playground of opportunity to get back into everything.
I have enjoyed myself within the last two years being reintroduced to the things I loved dearly. It has made me happy and hopeful. When he placed it on my heart to blog again. A light bulb went off. Why would I not take advantage of an opportunity get all of my thoughts out on a beautiful platform? I was nervous at first given it's been so long but then in no time, the ideas came rushing back in. It's like blogging is where I am meant to be! I am grateful for every person that checks out my site and reads the things I have to say. Here's to a great New Year together!
Here's to not being offended by my future posts ;)
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